With each passing day, Sunday is a distant memory and I have more important things to focus on. Much more important... these past few months have been incredibly difficult for me emotionally. It's no secret that I have been battling depression and anxiety since I was a teenager. About 3 months ago, I started taking the drug lexapro and I have found that it is simply not working. I can't sleep (literally, I get anywhere from 3-5 hours a night) and my jaw is tense and clenching, a lot. With all the working out that I do and the endorphins I am constantly feeding my body as a result of it, I firmly believe that I am past the point of childhood bullshit and low self-esteem issues. I am a veteran of therapy and recognize my weaknesses and triggers. This depression is something else, more severe. I am going to trust the influence of an incredibly good friend and go down a more holistic and ancient path...acupuncture and herbal medicine. If it was good enough for Chinese Emperors 3,000 years ago, it is good enough for me. I tried acupuncture once before but that was for hip pain. This will be different and I believe incredibly effective.
But despite battling some "demons," I managed to ride 22 more miles yesterday, 17 miles this morning and then run 8 miles after work. I am feeling really good physically and can see some light at the end of the tunnel...my first acupuncture appointment is this Saturday.